Post by Pilgrim Marc on Mar 12, 2009 13:47:29 GMT -5
Why do I believe?
I have been in som many churches, stream of Catholic, Messianic Christian, up to super Charismatic, Baptist, I discovered new ideas and moved on.
Met people that disappointed me and who I disappointed.
Friendship had seasons of growth and seasons of death, because believing in the one Jesus did not happen “their way”.
Still, I believe, why?
For me it is because God proved himself to be true, he touched me, and interfered in a active way in my life, and keeps on doing that.
He was the ever present One Present, behind every wall I walked in with my stubborn head, he was there waiting, waiting for me.
Patience and often, as I experienced it, with a smile on his lips, for his child that choose to learning such a mega hard way.
From the point I was on a certain moment in my faith walk I thought sometimes I found the answer, the right way, and though I had to convince other of the things I was so sure about.... you had to believe that way, wasn't it so?
Faith became a certainty no longer a journey, certainties where found and lost. But was this not more a expression of my own uncertainty than the certainty of faith?
Now in the past two, three years, this soapbubble has been pierced and splattered, I have not much to add anymore, there is no longer the “I must”.
By God I know that I can be just me, no more pressure anymore. He is the One Present.
There are still some things I am quit sure about, but I know that this is not a solid truth things can change, an my certainties don't have to be the same for others. What stays for me is Jesus, the Way, the Life, the Truth.
In Jesus, through Jesus, with Jesus I hope to keep on searching and discovering with the peace that this is my faith.
This way I feel secure enough to keep on traveling as proces, not so sure anymore, but much tighter knighted together with God.
I have been in som many churches, stream of Catholic, Messianic Christian, up to super Charismatic, Baptist, I discovered new ideas and moved on.
Met people that disappointed me and who I disappointed.
Friendship had seasons of growth and seasons of death, because believing in the one Jesus did not happen “their way”.
Still, I believe, why?
For me it is because God proved himself to be true, he touched me, and interfered in a active way in my life, and keeps on doing that.
He was the ever present One Present, behind every wall I walked in with my stubborn head, he was there waiting, waiting for me.
Patience and often, as I experienced it, with a smile on his lips, for his child that choose to learning such a mega hard way.
From the point I was on a certain moment in my faith walk I thought sometimes I found the answer, the right way, and though I had to convince other of the things I was so sure about.... you had to believe that way, wasn't it so?
Faith became a certainty no longer a journey, certainties where found and lost. But was this not more a expression of my own uncertainty than the certainty of faith?
Now in the past two, three years, this soapbubble has been pierced and splattered, I have not much to add anymore, there is no longer the “I must”.
By God I know that I can be just me, no more pressure anymore. He is the One Present.
There are still some things I am quit sure about, but I know that this is not a solid truth things can change, an my certainties don't have to be the same for others. What stays for me is Jesus, the Way, the Life, the Truth.
In Jesus, through Jesus, with Jesus I hope to keep on searching and discovering with the peace that this is my faith.
This way I feel secure enough to keep on traveling as proces, not so sure anymore, but much tighter knighted together with God.